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Overcoming Your Fear Of Conflict
I used to be someone that avoided conflicts at all costs, and paid the price for that.
My relationships never lasted longer than 3 months because I would find it easier to end a relationship than to have a difficult conversation.
My friendships were all shallow because I never called anyone out or stood up for myself, causing me to have a lot of surface-level friends but no real friends.
And I ran away from the lies I told myself and the hard truths in life as I did not learn to have tough conversations with myself, which often left my life on a downwards spiral away from the life I wanted.
The problem was that I never realized what the problem was. I always blamed everyone else.
But when I looked at it, it wasn’t that people didn’t like me or that I was unlucky, which I thought up until that point and which obviously didn’t add to my self-esteem and caused me to avoid even more conflicts.
I eventually began to accept that it was my lack of vulnerability and my refusal to accept the uncomfortable emotions that came with conflicts, that kept my relationships at that shallow level, and not what others did.
It was hard to accept this, but once I did things began to change.
