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The #1 Thing I Would Change: Pointless Worries
When I was 8 years old I worried about my math test, when I was 13 I worried about how my first relationship would turn out, and when I was 20 I worried about how much alcohol I could drink without getting drunk.
I worried about how others perceived me, about every relationship, about every exam, about my body, mind, and personality, and just about everything in between.
When I look back now on all of these things, I understand that almost none of them hold any merit anymore.
The tests I took in every class but college do not matter at all anymore.
None of my early relationships were that important or deep to worry about that much.
The only friends that warranted worry over, the ones that are still in my life, are the ones I never needed to worry over.
All the bosses and jobs I had and did bad on make no difference now, and even who I was and the embarrassing things I did have no impact on my life.
I worried about so many things and none of them seem to matter anymore.
And of course some of the tests mattered, of course the relationships taught me things, the friends made me happy in the moment and the jobs I had and who I was lead me to where I am today, but ‘worry’ had no important…
